Well, I'm back at it again folks!

Well, here I am. Again. A year later, and much heavier. Booooo. I have a Gala I need to make an appearance at in December, along with meeting a very hot and awesome actor as well. So my weight loss will be extreme. How extreme? Try 40 pds at the minimum. I have 102 days, or 14.5 weeks to accomplish this... and I know I can do it. How do I know? I've done it before. I went from 196ish back in early May 2006 down to 170 by late July/early August. That was 2-1/2 months, and 25 pds. I didn't exercise, I just did the low calorie diet. By September, I was in the 160's, so 30 pds in 3 months. I'm not doing that diet. I'm going a bit more extreme. Going back to my fasting, drinking water, and I'm going to try to get out and exercise a bit once the kids go back to school. What do I weigh right now? Grrr, I don't really want to say. But this is a public shame spot, and keeps me in line, so I begrudgingly will. 234. That's right, folks. 234 pds. Sad what kids and age do to you. So, i'm going to get back into my mode... I've spent the last few days doing so, and I have to say, it hasn't been as bad as I thought. Only time will tell though. I'm still breastfeeding and trying to break my psychological bond with it, but it's tough. I love feeding my little peanut, but I don't want her to not get what she needs because of my lack of calories. So I'm just going to wean slowly. She's a trooper, loves the boob but will take a bottle as well. It's just my attachment at this point. She's the last baby I'll ever have... it's breaking my heart knowing I won't be doing this again :( Wish me luck, fuckers!